For those whom have forgotten or never knew of "The Truman Show", it goes briefly like this.

Truman Burbank (played by Jim Carrey) lives in a world with thousands of hidden cameras and is filmed 24/7 and broad casted to the world since before birth. The whole purpose of this is to capture Truman's real emotion and human behavior when put in certain situations. Christof the executive producer has invented means of dissuading his sense of exploration, including "killing" his father in a storm while on a fishing trip to instill in him a fear of the water, and making many news reports and 'adverts' about the dangers of travelling. He never knew about his made-believe life until Truman discovers facts that seem out of place. His determination eventually lead him out of the artificial world he believed and lived in, and set foot into the real world.

Many times in life, I always took myself to be living in a perfect world with almost everything in balance. Good and bad, light and dark, white and black. Getting to the point, I believe that things happen for a reason, and I'm always out there to find them out. "What?", "where?", "who?", "how?" and "when?" has always been with me ever since consciousness creped into me. There are times which I could figure out, and then there are also times that I couldn't quite get it. And it's those times that I remain clueless that puts me into a dilemma of sort. Am I thinking too much, or is this world just not as perfect as I think? Many times I settled with the latter. And for that, I am consumed with the deadliest of all sins, pride.

Like Truman, skepticism got to the better of me. I ask too many questions, I want to know too much. My thirst of knowledge in everything big and small turned me into this small-minded, incorrigibly self-righteous bitch. There is a reason why God punished Adams, Eve and the serpent for the whole fruit-of-knowledge incident. There can never be a day any one being can know everything, all those knowledge is just going to consume whoever that possesses them. Even the author of the bible knows that it takes an almighty higher being to control and use these knowledge. Men was never meant to handle such whelm of attainments and wisdom, let alone say a mere me. Like I've mentioned before, I've sinned a sin so deadly, it's often associated to the darkest affliction. The ultimate source from which the other sins arise

Pride is identified as a desire to be more important or attractive than others, failing to acknowledge the good work of others, and excessive love of self. It was pride that caused Lucifer's fall from heaven and his resultant transformation into Satan.

I've always thought that I'm being consumed by pride, but never admitted to it. Now, as much as I hate to do it, I concede to the fact that I've been too big a bitch and an idiot. Humility might not come in a night, but at least I hope this is a start. And alike Truman, to step out of a made-belief terrene into the real world that everybody else is in.