there is so much i want to say, but because i'm in a stage where i find blogging essays uninteresting. but who knows, maybe i'll be blabbering on for 2 essays seeing how long i haven't been even blogging.

a lot has happened from my last post. but most of which can find easy association with school. oh well, i'm a student, school is all i got. and today, is the last official school day for the semester. my last exam for the semester, the most important one.

I've always thought i have more than enough confidence to deal with what-come-may's, sometimes getting cocky in the process. now i'm jelly-feet, a wuss and worst of all, scared. friends been telling me i'm prepared for exams, so does fredi. i only wish i can appreciate their extra doses of boost, but nothing's getting in. it's as though there is this natural film that repels all sorts of confidence boosting elements wrapping my mind.

Once bitten, twice shy. Last year around this time, i had my ego bruised so badly friends still swear they saw a tear in my eye. and as much as i try to convince them that it was becos of my lenses, i have doubts in that myself.

oh heaven, bless me.

oh, i must stop these doubts, all these worries. If i don't i just know i'll turn back. i must dream of the things i am seeking, i am seeking the courage i lack. it tells me all i trust i lead my heart to, all I trust becomes my own. i have confidence in confidence alone. let them bring on all their problems, i'll do better than my best. i have confidence they'll put me to the test, but I'll make them see I have confidence in me. and mind me with each step I am more certain, everything will turn out fine. i have confidence the world can all be mine, they'll have to agree i have confidence in me!