I never wanted to be like that.

I wanted to be open to life,
and fearless,
and not always thinking three steps ahead,
and consequences,
and what would people say
and what would my friends think.

It seems like I've missed a whole chunk of my life
to reasons and logic,
the best part is that I'm not always reasonable or at all logical.

I guess this is what people call as
"Growing Up".

I've grown.
At least a little,
and still has a lot to grow.

It's just that sometimes I wish
to be able to stop growing,
and escape into the past just for a little while.

Somehow, the chances of being able to do so
is getting lesser as the days go by.

Even when I'm heavily intoxicated.

I'm surprised though,
by how many people out there can do just that.
They stop growing.