you don't get it, idiot. i will not stop worrying about you. Even when you're 80, i will still lay awake at night, in my room waiting for you to tell me you're safe. Now that we're broken up, nothing's changed, except i can no longer make sure you're alright and happy, i can only ask if you are. so please, please tell me you're fine, so i can sleep.

What do you expect from me? I'm human! I know the you may not see me like this, but when you throw all sorts of stuffs at me, it freaking hurts! And I'm supposed to turn the other cheek and be the bigger man by telling myself how hard I've worked make me better than you? It's pretty damn hard to feel that way when you always get your way, always thinking that you're the victim. And don't give any of that "it'll get better" crap, because I'm NOT interested in getting better. I want to BE better. Right now, I want to hurt you like you hurt me, or worse, I want you to feel my pain, cos frankly, that's all I have left to give!

I thought by pushing all the blame to myself would make things work for us. I thought GOD would realise that I know that I'm at fault. But who am I kidding, really?




Me. Edmund.

i don't want to tell anybody. i don't want to appear weak. 3 simple words, but it can't get to anyone. no one else has to know, only you. but these 3 words shall just stay in me till they fade and mean nothing. i miss you.

Saying things out makes me drop them a little easier.

I need a break from school, a break from everything, take a vacation and find refuge somewhere I've never been to.

Maybe that's why I can't wait to go to London.

I need a reset button.

How to Let Go of a Past Relationship: 10 Steps to Move On Peacefully

How to Let Go of a Past Relationship: 10 Steps to Move On Peacefully

LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL (fear is conditional)

LOVE IS STRONG (fear is weak)

LOVE RELEASES (fear obligates)

LOVE SURRENDERS (fear binds)

LOVE IS HONEST (fear is deceitful)

LOVE TRUSTS (fear suspects)

LOVE ALLOWS (fear dictates)

LOVE GIVES (fear resists)

LOVE FORGIVES (fear blames)

LOVE IS COMPASSIONATE (fear pities)

LOVE CHOOSES (fear avoids)

LOVE IS KIND (fear is angry)

LOVE IGNITES (fear incites)

LOVE EMBRACES (fear repudiates)

LOVE CREATES (fear negates)

LOVE HEALS (fear hurts)

LOVE IS MAGIC (fear is superstitious)

LOVE ENERGIZES (fear saps)

LOVE IS AN ELIXIR (fear is a poison)

LOVE INSPIRES (fear worries)

LOVE DESIRES (fear Joneses)

LOVE IS PATIENT (fear is nervous)

LOVE IS BRAVE (fear is afraid)

LOVE IS RELAXED (fear is pressured)

LOVE IS BLIND (fear is judgmental)

LOVE RESPECTS (fear disregards)

LOVE ACCEPTS (fear rejects)

LOVE DREAMS (fear schemes)

LOVE WANTS TO PLAY (fear needs to control)

LOVE ENJOYS (fear suffers)

LOVE FREES (fear imprisons)

LOVE BELIEVES (fear deceives)

LOVE “WANTS” (fear “needs”)

LOVE versus fear: what do you feel?